gimme shelter

waking in a angry storm. clouds hover over the logical mind. winds whip my soul, gust full speed. my heart's pain is palpable and confusion is prevalent. a dream, a thought, a feeling, ghosts? where is the fresh start. where is the new day. what history do i carry laboriously. permeating every cell. centuries of memory. an eternity of unstoppable tears. well up. overflow. rain down until the storm passes and i can shudder silently, catch my breath and try again.